After my visit to VA, I was inspired.
During our college visit, one of the speakers talked about how they wanted to be the best for God. I was like, “Lightbulb!” Of course! It’s not me running fast! It’s God giving me the capabilities to run fast. So, I was like:
Okay! When I get home, I am going to put my whole heart into every run I do. I am not going to hold anything back. And I’m going to give all my “running glory” to God!
Then I got home.
I lost a LOT of my training during those four days. I’m not really sure why. I think it might have to do with the amount of food I ate. I don’t know…maybe? 😉
Anyways, on Monday, I was still kind of detoxing from my big weekend so I decided that even though I was SLOW and I had to keep stopping, it didn’t matter. Because I was still in detox mode. So of course I was going to feel sick. But today? Today would be different!
Before I set out on my run, I was nervous. I really wanted this run to be “redeeming”. To remind me that I am still a good runner. I seriously was nervous. I was like, “Am I going to be able to do this?” I wanted to run four miles and put my whole heart into each mile. My goal pace is obviously a seven-minute mile but… I didn’t think that was going to happen. I thought maybe like 7:20 or something.
So I went.
I had new songs on my iPod to run to with a really nice beat so I was glad for that! And today was a beautiful day, albeit a little humid. My first mile I ran in record time–7 minute pace: check! But it was really difficult. I was definitely running my heart out. And I kept slowing down. I couldn’t go faster. I was out of breath and couldn’t get my legs to go faster.
And I was slowing.
This was not my redeeming run.
And I hate to say it but it ruined my day.
I was grumpy for the rest of the day.
And then I realized something.
If I’m going to glorify God when I PR or have a really GOOD run. Then: I can’t have a bad day and be grumpy when I have a less-than-perfect run. Because my running is up to God. I will put all my effort into it and He will give me the results.
Does that sound holy? I’m not a holy person. I try to be a good christian and recently I am trying to put even more effort into it…but I have to admit that I am a looong way from fully fulfilling the above statement (s).
You guys could pray for me. I’d appreciate that.
Anyways, so my day was ruined by my run, until I realized that I was approaching things from the wrong perspective.
Okay. Moving on.
I have decided that to keep my mileage at what I want it to be I am going to let you all decide how many miles I run each day. Because I don’t want to let you all down!! So of course I will run the number of miles that the majority votes for!! 🙂 Abby says that no one cares…but well if you don’t care then just don’t vote and I will pick up on that and give it up. But for now! Here’s my poll for how many miles I will run tomorrow!
How’d your day go? And thanks for voting!! 🙂