Hello Again! (A random post about lessons that turns into cluing you into what is going on in my life lately)


It’s been so long since I’ve been on here that I actually forgot my password!

I know. I know. I said I’d post again when school started but life happens and I had more interesting things to do then sit at my computer tip-tapping away about my (non-existent) life. But. NOW. I am going to sit and tippy-tap at my computer about my life that I DO in fact have and I will not post as much as I used to. SO deal.

Oh I’m just warning you. This is coming off of watching a LOT of Jenna Marbles so I am a little hyper and like…idk Jenna Marble-ish…just warning you! 

I had a great summer and a great fall. So far. I went to some parties. I met a lot of new people. I ran cross country and became amazing at running. Well, not amazing but pretty awesome. I mean life has been awesome. I’ve learned some lessons too. 

1. Don’t give your heart away when you’re 15. Just don’t. No. You’re not going to get married. So, just don’t use the word ‘love’ unless you are talking to your friends that are girls or talking about some delicious food. Or cute animals.

2. School is important. In my family, we have a rule where we have to have all our homework done before we can go do fun things. So I just do it you know? Like easy as that. Okay I actually didn’t learn that lesson cause I already knew it. Disregard this.

3. Figure out who your real friends are. Hint: No matter how much you like them, they are not the ones who back-stab you, treat you unkindly, or ignore you. They ARE the ones who listen to your rants and then forgive you, apologize for what they did wrong without making excuses, listen to you, and are there for you when you need them.

4. Don’t do stuff on a whim. Like seriously? Whoever came up with the saying, “Follow your heart” was stupid. Don’t follow your head either. Just….get lots of advice. From a lot of different people. Of different ages.

5. You never know how people will react. If you haven’t already figured this out, I had a bit of a “relationship” through the past couple weeks. And I want to talk about it. It’s not secret anymore. But it was a big part of my life. And leaving it out would be leaving out a big part of who I have become. But the point of this lesson is that, some of the people I told about this who I thought would react in an “I told you so” fashion were actually the most sympathetic and understanding towards me. And some of the ones who I thought would care, just didn’t. So…don’t lose hope. Someone always cares.

6. Move on. Just do. And you need to find someone who will slap you upside the head and scream at you, “Move on.” But that person also has to hug you at those hard moments and tell you it’s gonna be okay. And she/he has to understand what you’re going through.

7. P!nk is awesome. Have you heard her new album? So amazing.

8. I know that I haven’t talked a lot about God on here in awhile. I actually had one of my readers talk to me about it. He said, “You know I really appreciated when you talked about God on here. Could you do that more?” And I said, “I really don’t feel like I am in a place where I could talk about how much I LOVE God and how wonderful He is and how much I am striving to live a godly life, when truthfully I’m not.” But I’m at a different place now. I don’t know. This summer was really great. I absolutely loved it. But it was hard too. A lot of self-discovery going on. And now I know myself a little better and I know what I want and being a Christian is definitely something that I want. I can’t imagine my life without Christianity a part of it. I do believe in God. I do want to please Him. I’m not perfect and you can’t always tell I am a Christian but I do love God. We are going to the most amazing church now and it really has been quite a wake-up call for me. So, I’m refocusing my life. This should be fun….

9. Injuries stink. I actually couldn’t run for the past two weeks because of a knee injury. It is serious deja vu. Ugh. Even with my stretching, I’m still side-lined. At my highest point over the cross-country season, I ran a 21:11 5k. My best time ever. And it was amazing. And today I ran for the first time in two weeks and I ran 2.6 miles. I couldn’t even run three miles. And I ran it in 21:25. I’m really trying to not let that upset me. Because I know that I am making a comeback. Oh, and the pain when I was done running those painfully slow 2 and a half miles? It was UNBEARABLE. I thought I was going to barf my knee hurt so bad. But I ran today. And that’s something! 🙂 And I love cross country. I am so sad it’s over.

10. Friends are awesome. Guys. Friends are so important. I am so thankful for my friends. They are so good to me. I know I’m hyperactive. I know I talk a lot. I know that I can be sooo annoying. I know I can get a little obsessive. But they stick it out. Cause they love me. And knowing that is just really…sometimes the only thing I’m living for. I’m not in any way suicidal but, everyone has those days where they’re like, “What am I even doing? I should just run away and start over!” But I couldn’t. I couldn’t leave my friends. This includes my family. Cause even though they’re annoying, my brothers are so sweet and fun. And even though she yells at me for not doing the laundry, my sister is the one who is up at one in the morning making me laugh after a really. bad. day. And my parents, even though they annoy me sometimes, are really pretty great. So guys, find friends who love you and who will always believe the best of you and who will take you for who you are. And if you need someone to talk to, I’m here. Cause I know how important it is to have someone there to listen to you.

11. Contrary to popular belief, sleep actually DOES make the world go round. Those people who stay up till like three in the morning and then get up at six? Or those people who pull all-nighters? i have no idea what is wrong with them. I need my sleep. Which is why I will end my very random post now even though I could continue. Cause I need to go to bed. And I still have reading to do….

hmmmmm. why am i writing a blog post? oh yeah cause I’m sick of school…

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Thanksgiving!


Well, today was the *OFFICIAL START OF THE HOLIDAYS*.

And truthfully, I don’t really like the use of the word, “holiday” because I feel like it’s used much too often to take God out of the picture. But it does seem easier to say than, “Today was the official start of all the celebrations of Thanksgiving and CHRISTMAS” Which I just said anyway so I guess I really am saving no ink. Or memory. Or whatever I am using up by having a blog. 🙂

There are so many things to be thankful for in my life!

1) I have such a wonderful family!

They are so funny and lively. I can’t imagine my family without each of my siblings as well as my parents. We just are all so alike and weird and funny. I especially love when we are all crazy and just laugh and laugh. Like, one night we were trying to do devotions but instead all tried to play hymns together on our newly-learned instruments. (This was recently 🙂 ). So yes, I have many great memories with my family. And I am so blessed to have each of them, EVEN when they drive me CRAZ-AY!!!!!!

2) I have such amazing friends!

They totally get me. Or they just humor me. I’m not sure, which. I am thankful for my dear LRF  or LRB…whichever it is! 😉 As well,as my dear friend, T. I am absolutely thankful for abby, my sister and best- friend- for- ever! I am also very grateful for two more recently made friendships, with two amazing girls that I love so much. And they are very much like me which makes me very happy!! 🙂

3) I am thankful I have such an awesome life

Yeah. I do. Every day I can’t help but think about how great it is! I am so lucky that I have parents who support me in everything I do and that they want to see me succeed! I am so lucky that because I am homeschooled I can plan out my life the way I want and be different. I am also very grateful that even though I am homeschooled, I still have a life and have many friends and “outs” in every day! 🙂

4) I am thankful that I get to run

I will be truthful that after my big race, I had doubts that I would be able to run again. But thanks to my running mentors who mean SO much to me!, I am back on my feet and get to run. I am so glad that we live in a safe neighborhood where I can just go running. I love to run and it’s kind of like a quiet time for me. i can’t imagine what was wrong with my brain all the rest of my life when I didn’t like it! 🙂 it’s such a  perfect sport for me!! So I am thankful that even with all my various injuries, God allows me to run and be active!

5) I am thankful for my optimistic personality

I used to get annoyed that I was always so happy, but I really am thankful for it. I like to be happy. I find it attracts people to me! 🙂 Ok, wow that was self-centered!

6) I am thankful that I get to have a blog

I have so much to say. This is like an outlet for all the words swirling around in my brain! Also, because of this blog I get very valuable advice about running. And one of my all-time favorite blogs! Don’t forget to check it out!

7) I am thankful I get to babysit

I love kids. And there are 3 kids who will always have a special place in my heart! I am in love with the family I babysit for and they supply me with endless laughs, and great memories! Here’s to many more years of babysitting! 🙂

I’m thankful for a lot more but at the risk of coming off as more self-centered than I already sound I will stop!

What are you thankful for?

Lil’ Prayers


1. Dear God,

Thank you for this day. Thank you that we can go to our friend’s house to play today. Thank you that Claire can come over and play with us. PLease let us do this again.

In Jesus’ name, AMEN

2. Dear Heavenly Father,

Thank you for this day. Thank you for this food. Please help us to do good in our school. Please help us to never be bad and to always obey our moms and to never disobey again. And…(ugh) um…(slaps head)

In Jesus’ name, AMEN

3. Dear Jesus,

Thank you for this day. Thank you that we can play with our friends. Thank you that we can do school. Thank you that you let us go to church. Thank you for dying on the cross for us.

AMEN

After the third prayer, a heated discussion ensued concerning whether or not God lets us go to church or if we CHOOSE to go to church. It’s truly amazing what deep thoughts these cute kids have about their Lord and Savior!!

Sorry I haven’t posted in SOOO long! I went on a little weekend trip! And then couldn’t get on here until today! I may or may not post pictures of my trip! 🙂 You never know with me. I never know with me either! 😉

Training


Well.

In about a month, i will technically be able to run 13.1

I was looking at different half-marathons i could run.

Oh! They looked so fun! There is one with a course right along the Lake Shore. And another trail race. Fun FUn!!!

But i am so scared! I know i have been training for…2 months now? But what if i can’t do it!?! What if i can’t finish my run!?!

All these what if?’s and i know i should just be trusting my God. He’ll help me. In fact, this past Saturday i ran 6 miles which isn’t the longest i have ever gone but still a long distance. For the last mile or so, i jsut sang over and over:

You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all
Seeking You as a precious jewel
Lord, to give up I’d be a fool
You are my all in all

Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name

Taking my sin, my cross, my shame
Rising up again I bless Your name
You are my all in all
When I fall down You pick me up
When I am dry You fill my cup
You are my all in all

And it helped!!! So i should jsut trust God but i am still scared!!

www.101reasonstosmile.wordpress.com says: “If you don’t do a half-marathon this year, i own’t tlak to you for a week!…okay for an hour”

But the truth is, i think that the person who would be teh most dissapointed with me would be:

ME!

I have worked hard and i would never forgive my self if i didn’t do it jsut causE i was too scared too…

hm. this is probably not interesting to you all though!!

Well, to be even MORE BORING!!! My garmin is AWESOME!!! I wish all runners could have one of these!! They are so amazing!!!!!!!

when i think about running a half marathon i get butterflies in ym stomach…

hey!! I have a 5k this saturday! I will tell you how that goes!!!

 

Something to chew on


You know, I read other blogs. And they are SO full of meaning.

ME? I am doing this cause i am a girl with too much to say.

I’m loud. Slightly immature. Trying to please God. But it’s hard. And i read ( http://www.laurajonesjournal.wordpress.com ) and I wish i could have that kind of faith and love for Jesus! Her posts are SO inspiring.

Mine are just…kinda silly. And every once in a while i get a random inspiration.

Today I had a conversation with a friend about dying for Christ.

What would you do if someone pointed a gun at you and told you to denounce your faith.

I said my heart would break. It would. There’s so much life left to live! Of course, I don’t imagine this will happen since it is slightly rare, but truly, what would your answer be? Would you do it? would you choose your life over God?

It’s kind of like the story of Peter at the crucifixion. Three times he was given the chance to tell the truth and 3 times he denied knowing Christ. The guilt that he harbored until Jesus forgave him must’ve been immense.

God is forgiving. But can’t we love Him enough to die for Him? He died for us. I am NOT saying that we should go put ourselves into suspicious situations where we could get killed for our beliefs. And you will probably never have a gun at your head with the choice to renounce Him and live.

But what about everyday things? Standing up for what you KNOW is right even when others mock you. Standing firm in your convictions from God. I have convictions from God that are hard for me to keep. Without others saying it’s dumb. But in the end, i want to be able to stand before God and say that I tried my very best and that when I messed up, I asked for forgiveness and made it right.

Because that’s what matters in the long run. We won’t be standing before our bullies when we die. Not the cool people. But God. God is who we will be answering to. Who we always are answering to.

Deceit. No one else knows. but God knows. Make it right with Him and with others.

Maybe you had a fight and are too proud to apologize. Humble yourself, like Jesus, the king of Creation, humbled Himself for us.

It’s things like these that shape who we are. And it’s hard, but it’s teh right thing to do.

You know, that “nagging” you get inside your head when you know something is wrong. Listen to it. stand up for your faith.